I don't know how I'm coping with all the things going on at the same time. There's orchestra, theatre, musical, singing lessons, two choirs, violin etc. And in the next two weeks I will have at least one big performance of them. On side I also should be doing some real school work. I'm doing my last courses before the final exams, the matricular examinations, and they're crusial.
In the back of my head I'm trying to keep an eye on my mental health. Just checking how do I create my thoughts, how do they affect on my behaviour and are my thoughts and acts realistic and rational.
I just watched the movie Black Swan. Although some ballet dancers criticize the movie I like the message that I receive: there is no perfection. It is dangerous to get involved so deeply into something that you cannot handle. In my case it means that I shouldn't get involved in too many things which eventually burns me out and locks me down physically and psychologically. Luckily I know already what's it like so I can see the signs if I'm still in my senses.
Hopefully this is temporary. Mostly it's up to me but you never know. Luckily I have a lot people to support me: my family (although it's tense sometimes), friends and of course my boyfriend.
Eventhough the sun doesn't shine and the sky is just pissing on us I'm trying my best: smile and give hugs.
Waiting for the snow season to kick in!
