Just a little something.

I haven't been writing here in a while sorry about that.

School is back on and my weeks from now on are starting to look pretty full of school stuff, for example musical rehearsals, violin and singing stuff.
In a week I'll have two auditions, one for our school's musical Nahkatakkinen tyttö ('A Girl With A Leather Jacket') which is performed in January. And the other one is to Sibelius Academy for singing lessons. I'm applying to be a practice student, where the actual classical singing students from the Academy teach me so they won't be professionals but anyways I believe I could still learn heaps from them.

Another thing what I haven't talked about is that my sister form Germany, Lena, was here and we had so much fun! It was like we had just been together although it had been a whole year since we last saw each other. And after she had left she was just a dream. I couldn't believe she had just been with me in Finland for a week or so.. But we had so much fun! We went to my grandparents summer cottage for a night, we went to Suomenlinna, 'A Fortress of Finland', we went to a party to my bf's house and so on... Unfortunately I had work on two days so I had to leave her home or the other time she had some time to go shopping.

This happens when you let your workmates hug you. I walked around like 10 minutes before someone told me that 'btw you have something on your back.' We had a good laugh tho!

We got some strawberries from our backyard. 

I went to see the Tall Ship's Races. Next year if I haven't got anything on the day they arrive I would love to go with them. They always recruit people from a harbor to another.

I also got to enjoy my time at the sea. First I went sailing with a good friend of mine to a little sailing boat for two. The boat itself was really cute, pink 'Love Boat'. It was the first time I got to try that and it was interesting. My abs didn't like it so much so we had to have these little break in the between.

After the sailing with my friend I left out on the sea with three guys. We camped on and island and luckily there weren't anyone else there because they probably wouldn't have been so excited about the peace and harmony we brought with us! ;) We decided to make some burn marks around the fire place (not into living trees or anything!).
The next day or in the early morning it started to rain and our window started leaking.. In the end it was okay but maybe next time we should pick a day when it isn't gonna rain.

Just last week we went camping into the woods with couple mates and AGAIN it started to rain in the morning... We really aren't good with this!

 Holma-Saarijärvi was the island where we camped.

Our men in the woods!

And last but not least, today I went to Helsinki and enjoyed the Restaurant Day. It is a day when anyone can have a restaurant in their backyard for example. I went to see my friends burger restaurant where they had a window open from their apartment to the patio where people could sit (on the concrete) and listen to music and couple live bands.

If I ever live in Helsinki on a good spot I will also take part in the restaurant day. I was thinking about setting up a bakery maybe. But that's not gonna happen for a while.

Retro Station

Next time I will probably just talk about theatre and musical and everything to do with those things!!

Lena

I feel partly empty. Like something is missing.

En pysty käsittämään, että 5 kuukautta on jo mennyt ohi ja nyt olen jo puolivälissä. Oli todella outoa saattaa sisko lentokentälle, koska nyt tämä on sen osalta ohitse. Koko tämän puoliskon ajan olen tottunut olemaan siskon kanssa ja kokenut kaikki hyvät ja huonot kokemukset. Ollaan itketty yhdessä, naurettu, laulettu, soitettu, ikävöity, eksytty, löydytty, hulluiltu, valehdeltu ja oltu aina välillä todella saatu toinen toisemme tuntemaan suurta häpeää toisen takia.
Kyyneleet vain valuvat mun poskia pitkin, kun kirjoitan näitä sanoja. En osaa kuvailla kuinka tärkeää kaikki nuo hetket ovat olleet mulle. Mä en ole koskaan tuntenut mitään tälläistä. Voi johtua ensinnäkin siitä, että mulla ei koskaan aikaisemmin ole ollut oikeaa siskoa. Toiseksi olen kokenut kaikki nämä tunteet ja tapahtumat siskon kanssa. Kolmanneksi tämä on varmaan ensimmäinen kerta, kun joku hyvin läheinen lähtee pois mun luota. Aina aikaisemmin minä olen ollut se joka lähtee pois. Se on paljon helpompaa, koska silloin mulla on se halu lähteä ja edessä on jotain uutta ja mysteeristä.

Olen todella onnelinen, että sisko kuitenkin pääsee kotiin, koska se on kuitenkin Koti. Perhe, se oikea aito alkuperäinen. Tavat, omat ja taipuvat. Maisemat, kotoisat ja turvalliset. Ystävät, tutut turvalliset.

Menen huomenna aamulla salille purkamaan kaiken minkä itsestäni irti saan, jotta saan jotain muuta ajateltavaa enkä jää yksin kotiin vain katselemaan tyhjää sänkyä ja puoli tyhjää huonetta. Huono puoli tässä on myös se, että nyt alkoivat myös lomat, joten mun täytyy keksiä itselleni jotain tekemistä, etten ajattele, koska siitä ei koskaan seuraa mitään hyvää.

Kukaan ei koskaan pysty korvaamaan tätä suhdetta mitä meillä oli ja on vieläkin. Nyt mun vain pitää alkaa säästämään, jotta pääsen ensi kesänä Saksaan. Ei tämä tähän jää, jos minä saan päättää.